I was pretty exhausted given the stress swimming around in my world and decided to go to bed early. J called as usual to talk to our son, a little later than normal and was thinking that he might take the night off. Take a break from the drama.
I had been causing drama the last couple of evenings. My jealousy was getting the best of me. I brought up the subject of his girlfriend often and he was getting frustrated. I do believe, I was not the only one causing him frustration. I am sure that my email exchange with his girlfriend also caused him some stress.
A week prior, the evening of my initial email to the girl, J sounded terribly depressed. I kept asking him what was wrong but he did not answer. I knew what was wrong. His girlfriend confronted him with my email. The girl should not leave her facebook on public settings. Silly girl. She checked into places and I could tell she was with my husband. I was matching her check-in’s with my husbands bank account. I am a sleuth I tell ya. But my snooping hurt me. I just wanted a straight answer from J.
I could always tell when my husband was lying. Usually I was looking him in the eye when he did so. These days, I could not determine through the phone. I hated that he spent money on this girl. I hated it. He should have given us money without me having to ask. Since he had money to spend on her, I decided to make a small transfer of funds from his account to mine. I know it sounds shady, but all I take is fifty dollars. That money goes towards our son’s expenses; it’s not an excessive amount….so I do not feel bad. Not an ounce.
When J called Thursday, I could tell I had driven a wedge between him and his girlfriend. He stayed on the phone with us for over an hour. We laid in bed, played with the kid and enjoyed a bit of small talk. It was like we were all in the room, just enjoying each others company and enjoying our kid.
I was too tired to bring up the subject of his girlfriend. I think we both have had enough.